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The Lady Luck EP is available now for preorder at the Fueled By Ramen Webstore. It has 6 songs, the remixed version of 'Take My Hand', and the bonus track 'Lights'. :) It's release date is June 23, so everyone should go and preorder now. :D<br>

Buy tickets people. Support the lovely band The Cab. <3

Do you ever breakdown?
Not angry shout matches kinda breakdown, but a full on body shaking,gut wrenching sobbing breakdown. The kind that comes out of nowhere and hits you like a slap to the face. The kind you have to hide from other people because you don’t even know what’s wrong yourself, so you end up on the floor in your bedroom trying to hold back your sobs so no one will hear you and it hurts. It really fucking hurts. Your eyes burn and throat aches and you just want it to stop but the tears won’t stop coming, and your shoulders keep shaking and you just can’t.

And you know, maybe you should havve seen it coming. After all the things that have been said, little comments not meant to hurt anyone's feelings built up on your shoulders, you knew you were gonna break sooner or later. Everyone has a tolerance point and yours has been reached, has been for awhile now and maybe you should have seen this coming. Every morning you were aware of the fake smile being put on your face, practiced it in the mirror a thousand times before locking the door and walking down the street, so yea, you definitely should’ve seen this coming. Probably knew it was going to happen soon somewhere in the back of your mind, right next to all the memories you wish could be erased, but you try not to go there as much as humanly possible, so honestly, is it really your fault you didn’t know?

You don’t know how long it goes on for, didn’t look at the clock when this all started, but your tears are starting to slow and the shaking isn’t quite as bad, but your throat still hurts like hell, feels like you’re breathing in flames when it’s only air and crap, you are so sure someone’s heard you. They’ve had to. But no one comes, so you’re pretty sure they didn’t, either that or they just don’t feel like dealing with you. That last thought goes around your head a bit before you toss it to the side, unbeknownst to you that that thought is the first chip that starts the whole new weight that will be on your shoulders in due time.
It’s a vicious cycle really, one you’re not sure you’ll ever be able to break out of.
One that you hardly notice exists half the time. At least not until you’re lying on your bedroom floor trying to hold back your sobs again.